Why the Tears? August 16, 2009

My eyes are puffy, my nose has become too stuffy and my head has been pounding continuously. If you think I caught the cold virus, you can’t be more mistaken. The symptoms mentioned are actually after – effects of too much crying. Yes, I am not ashamed to admit I’ve been crying my eyes off for half the day eversince I received the text message from Sir Arvin at around 1:30 PM stating that nothing we could do or say could prevent him from leaving EVNHS because if he declines, he’d be charged for insubordination — the office order has been signed, that’s why.

So why the tears? I should be in a celebratory mood because my partner in crime is finally promoted — been chosen to take on a greater responsibility knowing that he is very much capable of doing it. Deep within I am happy for him because I know he deserves it, but telltale hints suggest that something is very wrong with this sudden promotion — a promotion in name only because the position and the salary aren’t upgraded. Why so sudden? Why wasn’t he even formally and personally called to the Division Office to be informed of such? I could go on and on with a list of questions that start with “Why?”, but nothing could stop the inevitable — Sir Arvin is still leaving EVNHS.

Why the tears? Why indeed?

I cry not only because I will miss a friend, a confidante, a counselor and an artistic colleague, but mostly because of the FACT that my friend isn’t happy with it and feels that he is but a sacrificial lamb. My heart breaks because I see his demeanor crumbling down — the confidence gone and buried with the mire of despair and uncertainty. I don’t want to look him straight in the eyes because I see the tears brimming just below the surface. I don’t want to see his inner strength shattering. And he knows he is at a dead end. He knows that though the taste is bitter, he’s got to glob whatever laid in his platter.

But then, God is always at the helm, I know HE is. He isn’t blind to everything that’s happening. He sees the hundreds of hearts that’s breaking because of this and I am sure that in time, the pain will heal to usher in a new hope — the hope that when the right time comes, my partner in crime will be back where he belongs — he will be back not as the partner in crime at my workplace anymore, but a head of office worthy of my respect and reverence .

In God’s perfect time, I am SURE it will happen.

Saturday Rant August 16, 2009

There are people who, driven by their personal interests, sacrifice and compromise the good of the majority. There are selfish people who do their best and try every means to get their hands on that certain something they so desperately spent a lot of money on to get…. and have selfishly achieved at the expense of a lot of people — DAMN THEM ALL TO HELL!

What I am talking about?

Intelligent people know what I am talking about. Those who are intelligent but have chosen to be silent and to appear ignorant because of a fear for something or someone — or because they seek a special favor from someone —- are nothing short of spinelessness and deserve to be condemned ; if not on earth, then in the afterlife.

I am mad as hell. I am fuming with rage because despite every desperate measure we thought of and did, we were unsuccessful…. iba na talaga ang kinang ng pabor lalo na’t may padulas na hindi mantika!

Pagaba baya pod kung manggamit ta ug tawo, no? Pero kung ang tawo wala nay konsensya kay ang importante niya ug unsa ray makalipay niya, wala sad tay mahimo ana kay iya sad nang kinaiyahan. Iya-iya ra man jud ug kinaiya ang tawo…. pero bason pod unta ug wala magpiyong adtong higayona si “BRO” aron iyang paambakan ug kilat ang mga tawong walay atay ug batikolon… hasta ang kasingkasing naduhigan na sa kaitom sa pagkahakog ug pagkamapahimuslanon sa gahom.

Pero mao ra jud ni ang kataposan sa akong sinulad nga undanon pero way unod para sa nangaigo: I MIGHT HAVE LOST FAITH IN THE HUMANITY OF MAN, BUT I WILL NEVER LOSE FAITH IN MY GOD.